I don't know,

That itch that never seems to disappear. Those choices that eat away at my soul. This pain that never fades.
Make it go away, please.

Some AFI lyrics tha I've always liked.

Open my eyes as I submerge and I won't deny what I've been since birth.
I'll die drowned by your standards.
Breathe in the life of the summmer's death as the orange and red breathe their first breath,
so welcome as they're burning through. We all begin to burn.
Autumn's flame dance's in my eyes Set alight for all we've learned.
My ashes falling. My skin is singed but it heals my heart and with glowing pride I'll wear my scars.
I'm honored by your hatred. Leaves fall we arise again, and the end impending, it will begin.
So welcome as it's burning through. Ashes fall and I'm rising up again.
Ashes fall. Ashes fall. Ashes fall as we all arise.

June 6, 2009

My life seems to finally be taking a turn for the better. Much, much better. Today was perfect, because of her. I just want to say that I think she is the one to make my depression go away. For good.

"My own love story"

I'm just sitting down for a few minutes, with the desire to get out some feelings. If I like this, I'll continue it later.

I fought my way through the rain drops, your face was all I could see. The memory of your warm embrace, was all that could keep me going through the disasters. Time and time again, I thought I could go on no farther, only to think of you and pick myself back up, over and over again. I had decided long ago that nothing would stop me from completing my journey. Even as others words beat down upon me, telling me to give up, that you are not worth this, I knew all along just how wrong they are and always will be. You are worth every ounce of pain that could ever be inflicted upon me, and that pain will never stop me from needing you.

You feel the pain tearing you. On your knees, you question "Why me? Why now?" But I fight through the harsh world to lift you to your feet, clearing the clouds and showing you the beautiful sunrise. The sunrise, upon you and I.

I don't know what I'm waiting for..

I'm sick of being single. I'm sick of not having someone that gets slightly jealous when I hang out with other girls. I'm sick of not having someone that's always there to hold me when my depression hits.

But then on the other hand,

I'm sick of trusting, just to get walked all over. I'm sick of excuses. I'm sick of thinking she was the one, only to find out that I wasn't even the only one.