I'm sick of being single. I'm sick of not having someone that gets slightly jealous when I hang out with other girls. I'm sick of not having someone that's always there to hold me when my depression hits.
But then on the other hand,
I'm sick of trusting, just to get walked all over. I'm sick of excuses. I'm sick of thinking she was the one, only to find out that I wasn't even the only one.
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I think you've just been through a lot of people who didn't appreciate you. I know I have been. It takes going through a lot of stuff before you ever really find the right person. It's hard to luck up and just find them. Good people are so hard to find now. I'll tell you though, I think you're an amazing guy with so much to offer someone. I think you'd make a great husband and I know from when you dated Jasmine that you'd be a good friend and partner. I'm really sorry that things have been bad. Seriously though, it's hard. I know. I've been through a lot too. Sometimes you just luck up. Don't give up though. Keep trying. Don't try...too hard though. Love shouldn't be forced. When you find someone, don't try so hard that you try making someone real that just...well..isnt'...Sometimes you have to broaden your mind and open it to new people. I know one day you'll find someone great for you.
Well, I don't think the jealosy part is a very positive thing to want, but I get the rest. I really do. Plenty of girls have hurt me, that's just how it goes at our age. I'm not saying that that excuses it or that you shouldn't feel some pain from it, it's just bound to happen. Sooner or later the people who hurt you will get what's coming to them and if they're smart they'll realize how wrong they were and how much they threw away, whether they're willing to admit it or not. That's what keeps me going: SPITE.
ReplyDeleteNaw just kidding. Well, most of the time. No one's perfect.
Sometimes I really want a girlfriend too. But then I think of all the drama bullshit that tennage girls can cause........and then I still want a girlfriend. I'm not gonna smile and say "Oh just think positive!" Because soemtimes that's not how it works. I don't know about you, but I HATE IT when someone says that to me.
Pain and anger aren't always completely bad. USE it, don't bury it. If I didn't, then I wouldn't have near as many stories/poems/paintings/songs/photographs/or drawings. Deal in your own way.
But I will give one teensy bit of the "think positive" philosophy: Everyone gets what they need. It may not be all they need at one time, it may not be what you want (Ya can't always get whatchu WAAAANT...lol), it may not be what you thought you needed, but you will get it eventually.
Hope that my little rant helps.